Wordless Wednesday

Bring on the baldness

I have had a change of course these last few days......cancer patient is now slapping me in the face. I know I don't have cancer anymore because all the tests say it.....but I am now dealing with the chemo side effects....I have finally truly started losing my hair. For a few days it seemed normal.....random hairs coming out when I would put my hand through my hair. Well yesterday it really started......I can't even touch my head with many, many hairs coming out......ahhhh it is so gross......I see now why women go get their head shaved........everywhere I turn I am having to pick hair off.......I might have to go get a short hair cut like Glenda did today. Not sure how much longer I can take my hair coming out like this and it just started happening. I even resorted to wearing a hair net today to keep my hair from going all over the place.....only Glenda saw that pic..sorry not posting it......looked like I was ready to go rob a bank....it was scary looking......

I think Billy has now done it all......he vacuumed my back with the dust buster....lol.....found out that the lint brush works better

I am so excited today Jackson is coming back from Texas...he should be here any minute...he has been gone a week........he better be ready for lots of hugs and kisses.........hopefully my hair problems won't scare him...crap he said he would have trouble telling me, aunt glenda, and pop pop apart...so he might be shocked I still have hair....that kid is a trip........will post Texas pics soon

So people if you want to go out to eat with me coming up or to hang out with me you might want to bring your dust buster ....beware of falling hair...hahhahahah

I won't let go

This song is so perfect for my life right now....it is a very touching song and means so much.

http://www.cmt.com/videos/rascal-flatts/599179/wont-let-go-from-invitation-only.jhtml?artist=710215#fbid=YZ37_ZI13gn

Wordless Wednesday

I still have hair

Today is day 15 since my first chemo treatment. They said I would probably start losing my hair on day 7 or day 14. I know the inevitable will happen. I am to the point where if it is going to come out I wish it would start. Maybe I will get lucky. But if I lose my hair that is the least of my worries.

I went yesterday for treatment number two. So far so good. I guess I will never get used to one of the chemo meds being red! It is still very hard walking into that treatment area and seeing so many people going through the same thing I am. I really which they could find a cure for this. It is becoming too common. I got to my appointment at 1:15 and didn't get taken back to the treatment room until 2:30. I was one of the last patients to leave at 5:30. My next treatment is on April 18 and it is not until 2:10. So I will probably be even later getting out. I tried to get it for a morning time but they said I was considered a "short treatment....which Is a good thing...so I will suck it up and take my afternoon appointment.

I am kind of dreading this week because my first week of treatment was manageable but I felt so yucky all week. I can already tell a little bit of a difference today. I am still feeling good but I keep having a watery mouth and feeling like I need something in my mouth. Oh and these steroids...man they are making me so puffy and flushed. Yesterday I told Billy I felt puffing and he said "not to be mean...but u r puffy."...hahaha...glad he can be honest with me. I go tomorrow to take my white blood cell shot to help boost my white blood count. It has the possibility of making me feel bad. Crazy how these medicines work...you take one medicine to help one thing and it can cause other problems. I am taking a medicine to help with nausea and it can cause drowsiness, headache, and dizziness.....kind of funny in a way.

I went today to see my plastic surgeon for my saline injection...got to get these muscles stretched so I can get some new boobies in the future :). He was concerned about my right arm...so now I have to go see a physical therapist....just adding another doctor to the mix. Like Billy said..this is nothing compared to what we have been through. I don't go there until April 18...so maybe it will have loosened up,..I am having trouble straightening my right arm...I can use it but a lot of stuff I do with my arm I use it bent..but when I try to straighten it my veins in my bend of my arm bulge out like they are being pulled. So I guess I do need some therapy......with everything I have been through what is one more doctors appointment....if it gets me better BRING IT ON!!!!!

I have an AVON website now

Www.youravon.com/wardmelissa

Visit to Burge Plantation

Yesterday we went to Burge Plantation for Jennifer and Brian's wedding rehearsal. This was the first time I have been back there since our wedding day on June 26, 2004. It is so pretty out there. I can't believe Billy and I have been married for six years now...closer to 7......and have a 5 year old.....wow how times flies......The whole time I was there I was picturing our day and how beautiful it was that day.....I can't wait to see the wedding today...I know it will be so pretty....I love weddings! AND I AM VERY EXCITED THAT I STILL HAVE HAIR FOR THE WEDDING..yay....wow the things that make me excited these days......

During the rehearsal Jackson came up to me and asked the funniest thing: "Mommy is daddy getting married to someone else"....hahahahh ...kids are so cute :)

Of course I have pictures of Jackson attached.....The ones of him in the grass between the trees is where we had our ceremony.....The one of him at the house is where we took our pictures and where I came out of the house with Daddy....and then I just knew he would look handsome in the rocking chair